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Lost Love
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How much I am fed up with this endless routine! I am tired of pulling a smile on my face daily, whereas my soul is crying because of weariness. I am tired to bear those whom I cannot bear. I am tired of my chronic fatigue.
I am tired of being strong. I am tired of lying to myself and nourish myself with hopes. I am tired to justify others� hopes. Life is not a fairy tale, why do I keep on believing in it? I am tired of struggling with myself and those around me. I want to be alone. Simply to stay alone for some time.
Routine eats me up. I begin to feel myself a shallow person. I am tired of being strong, but don�t wish to be weak. Contradiction. And I don�t know how to find out the solution.
My God! Now I want to cry at everybody indiscriminately! ...
Once upon a time there was a very attractive man, tall and with black hair... his eyes filled with love. His kisses were passionate and tender, his name is not forgotten, his name Anthony Westcott, for the woman that loved him he was just West, the wonderful man, the man that touched her soul so deep. One day after so much loving, something out of the blue happend and he got lost, very lost in time, a storm took him away from her arms.
At night Anna weeps and feels the warm tears running down her face, she can feel this love inside her heart and want to run and find him but she knows is not up to her, something big has to happened for them to be together. He was the most passionate and strong man she had ever met and when he holded her in his arms she trembled with such a love that she can't forget not even if she lived a million years. His fingers running thru her back and just making her feel love is a picture in her mind she can't erased, now he was not with her and she wished she could have him back.
...The Best Love Ever - (by Kenneth Uhl II)
Ok well this love was started about 7 or 8 years ago and this is how it all started. I was 16 or 17 at he time in the 10th grade. One day this Angel walked in the school she was new there. When I first laid eyes on her I knew then and ther she was the one and I had to meet her, when I first seen her it was like every thing else around was gone she was all I could see. Anyways the first time I got to meet her was in gym class, one of her friends made her come over and say hi to me and when I heard her voice I was in LOVE her voice was the most beautiful thing I have ever heard in my life and the most beautiful thing I have ever laid eyes on, it was like she was a gift from heaven an Angel from God. Every day after that we sat close next to each other and would just talk about anything, we shard everything with each other. We would just sit there and stare at each other and we would both blush. We shard our thoughts, our secrets, talk, laugh and smile. We were in our own world nothing could ever bother us when we were together. The vibs, the feelings we would get from each other was amazing something I have never feelt in my life. There was only one problem and that was she had a boyfriend at the time, but it never really had a effect on us just we did not act like we wanted to with each other. I so bad wanted to kiss her and I was really afraid to tell her how I really feelt, and it was the same for her, we both had these feeling for each other and we knew it we just never acted on it. Then we started writeing lettler to each other and was able to get our feelings out that way. I remember one time she was out said of the school she came to the window of my class room to give me a note. I also remember the time I told her I wanted to kiss her and she said do it and see what happens, I was so close but didn't do it. I remember a letter she wrote to me she was going to break up with her boyfriend and we were going to hook up. Then on the last day of school her and her Aunt gave me a ride home I walked I walked up my sidewalk wanting to turn around and give her a hug and kiss her but I never did, and I will regret that the rest of my life, because after that day she just left with out a warning, with out a goodbye,not a number, or an address to write to she was gone. All I had was the letters she wrote to me and a pictuer of her in my mind and heart when I would close my eyes I could see my Angel. So 7,8 years pasted and BAM there she was again, she found me. My Life was lited up again I was givin back hope in my life and love, my Angel came back to me. WE I sent an e mail to her on December 4th that was the first letter sent. We talked online and on the phone for about a month then on new years weekend I went to see her again for the first time in 7 years. All them feelings we had were still there they never died they just came back in no time but a million times stronger. We had no contact with each other for 7 years no letters, no phone calls, nothing and oue feelings never died they just grew trough the years. We have been together ever sence, we are now talking about getting married and we have a kid on the way. We are really going trough some hard times right now though but we don't give up we hang on to each other now. We lost each other once and it riped our hearts out and killed us. Our Love is strong and unbreakable we just neen to hang on and get trough these hard times if we can get trough tis we will have the greatiest love of all time. So baby hang on for us I swear to you I won't let you down. Well thats all for now if you interrested in more detail let me know.
I want absolutely nothing, even don’t want to be with you, together… Our love affair is not the way it was before. Some invisible thread is torn. Now I don’t know where you are, with whom, what is occupied with...and you know, it’s not even interesting for me.
How much I could cry? How much? How many tears were shed because of you. Perhaps you won’t know about it, and in my turn I will try to forget about it. You are not my prince, though seemed to be him for a long time. You played your role very nice.
Now I again have friends. Before I just didn’t notice them. Honey, you know, before I was yours. Of course, you know and think that so far I am yours and will be such for good. No, darling, you are wrong. Sorry, but everything won’t be as you wish. Now you will play according to my rules, or won’t play at all. I don’t want you to be with me. So, you won’t! However, if I want you caress – I will have it… I turned into a real girl out of your naïve doll. The only thing I want to thank you for is that you helped me in this transformation.
Now I see the world in a different light. You taught me to love – I want to thank you for it. Everything that was between us will rub away, will fly away from my mind with time. I want to get rid of all negative memories. I want to forget you. I am not yours.
She sat at the table and looked languidly through the window. Grey clouds were slowly flowing in the blue sky. It was only the fragrance of her favourite lilies, standing on the table, that saved her from a pinching offence in the heart...
It was painful to again feel a toy in his hands, try to change it, to change herself, simply to forget and become friends. But his look, his tenderness gave hope from time to time.
She was tired to live for others, wanted someone to live for her, to share his warmth and caress. She wanted to live without crying bitterly.
She meditated on similar things for a long time, having stopped her look on lilies that seemed to also get tired with being sad and suffering, its petals as if shrank with pain. ...
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