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brokn_mended
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brokn_mended
United States
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well basically im your average girl..unpredictable and loving love. it takes alot of patience to understand me and like many other girls, i dont even understand myself... but then again who really wants to understand themselves and see who they really are inside? it seems as if i have turned this into a thought session rather than a space to tell about myself so i think ill wrap it up. i hope you read my story... cuz its complicated but worth readingmember stories
He lives in the present. He loved me so much im sure no words can tell. ive hurt the guy in countless amounts of ways and looking back i regret every time i broke his heart. but every time he forgave me, except this time. the last time. i should have knew this was coming. but i was blind by my own selfish desires. But then i broke his heart, knowingly. something i promised i would never do. anyways... i only wish i had one more chance. hes given me plenty but he just wont give me a chance to prove to him i have changed from a flirt to the girl ive been longing to be. i dont even want to be in another relationship with him. i just want a friendship. someone to talk to and can tell everything to and trust. i want my best friend back... not a boyfriend. i wish he would just talk to me and let some healing take place. hes living in the present and he the reason he wont talk to me is because he fears he will fall in love with me again. which i think is pretty selfish. im really trying to look at this situation unselfishly but i think its time for him to let go and talk to me and move on. in 20 years he wont know me but i wonder if he'll regret not getting things right. ive tried to talk to him and everytime he's left me in tears standing in the middle of the parking lot. now im not trying to make the reader of this feel bad or sorry for me. i just needed to tell somebody that doesnt know this guy.
*if you wouldnt mind, could you pray for the guy that God would give him peace about me and our friendship. i know you dont know me and i dont know me but we're all human and we all have problems when we just need someone to care enough to take time out of the day and pray. thank you.- Read full story | 1 comment
Posted on 5 April, 2008, 10:48 am by brokn_mended
Category: Lost Love
i was in 9th grade and so was he. i certantly wasnt looking for love. i wasnt even sure i knew what true love meant. well anyways... through his sister we got together. after 3 months of dating i told him i loved him and he said he felt the same...how naive i was. he had broke up with me countless amounts of times already and he would always come back and say "im sorry" and wed get back together the same day. i had believed we were perfect and i was silly enough to think we'd get married. on the last day of our 9th grade year i had reason to believe something was majorly wrong. at our class party he hung out with his friends and acted like i wasnt alive. so i asked him and he assured me that we had the whole summer together. lier. turned out he went to his dads for the summer. well on july 2 my friend had been staying the nite with me and we had planned to go to my bfs house for july 4th. so i called him and he said they were having a party and we could come. on july 3 i was so happy i was finally going to see him. however he was not. on july 4th i had trying to get ahold of him the whole day and around 7pm he finally called me back. turned out there was no party and he never asked his mom. he told me we needed to take a break. i knew that this was not just one of our short break ups but that it was final. when i went to stay the night at the friend who had stayed with me i asked her to call him for me. they talked for nearly an hour before i was 'allowed' to get on. when i did talk to him i found out that basically he never loved me and he needed to have a gf for the school year. well then my friend and him got together. i hated him and her. and i let them know. i felt betrayed and hurt. a year later i get a call. guess who. it was him. he invited me to his birthday party and i was up for it. he hardly spoke to ma the entire time and i felt so stupid for going. that nite he called me again with his friend. well later me and his friend dated on the phone.. but i just wanted revenge on my ex. eventually i started to fall for this guy.. but i had to end it soon cuz it would never go any farther than just talking on the phone. eventually i began to nearly crave love. how much lower could i get rite? well anyway i began to develope a new on look of love. and in my mind love registered heart break and misery. that how it would always turn out. so thats how i treated my new bf. he was a true man. one i trusted alot. also one i broke his heart. i wasnt in the relationship for looks cuz if i was i would have never dated this guy. anywho...he really loved me...so much... i dont think i can comprehend it. but i didnt want to ...love was only misery and heartbreak so it couldnt be this perfect... so i ended it as i thought it should be ended. when i finally stopped searching for love it fell right into my life. hes the one im with now. hes not perfect but hes mine. actually hes my 6th, 7th , and8th..maybe even 9th grade crush...and rival. he was so mean back then.lol.. but now hes the greatest guy ive met. and we have had our moments... actually i had my moments.. but i was too scared to love him so for a while i left him heartbroken..until i figured out that to be afraid of love is to be selfish.. and when i finally let myself love agian...everything fell rite back into place.. and now life is basically complete. and thats my lil story- Read full story | 0 comments
Posted on 4 April, 2008, 1:46 pm by brokn_mended
Category: Young Love
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