When I was 13 years old, I fell in love for the very first time. The guy was my friend’s brother. He was cute, strong, and funny, 15, but I didn’t like something about him he used drugs. I don’t know how or why I fell for him. I don’t want to say his name so I’m going to call him bob. He treated me bad, like I was nothing but a mistake in this world. He would make fun of me because back then I was a little overweight for my age. Before he ever saw me for the first time we would talk and talk on the phone. But then everything changed, he stopped talking to me, and continued his hurtful words. I guess this made me fall more for him. One day my friend told me he would always talk about me, and that he told her that he liked me, I was so happy. I started dreaming about me and him together as boyfriend and girlfriend. He stopped making fun of me for a while. Then one day after finding out he liked me he went to a party. I found out something happened there. He had lost his virginity with his ex. I was devastated when I found out, I couldn’t believe it, I thought I actually meant something to him but I had just realized I didn’t. I cried and cried for days. Then I found out that the girl he had sex with had just used him. He was very depressed; he wanted to change for good. He said he was going to stop using drugs, because he didn’t want to die, he also said that he wanted a girlfriend to be with. I was happy, I thought this could be my chance, my only chance, but after about one week, he forgot about what he had said. He started dating some girls from my school. He was in high school and I was in middle school. He said they were hot and would even tell me to my face he was going to go out with them. And once again he started making fun of me, saying I was fat. I decided I was going to forget about him. So for the rest of the year, I didn’t talk about him or talk to him. I started exercising, and eat healthy just so he could shut up and stop. This was my biggest dream that he would come to me when I was skinny.
When I entered high school my dream came true, I was skinny and pretty (not being conceited). A lot of guys started noticing me, even more than when I was a little overweight. This made me so happy; I had almost forgotten about bob, I hardly ever thought about him. Then one day I saw him, after a long time not seeing him, he was there, the same place I was in, but he was with a girl, kissing her. A tear wanted to come out, I accidentally sobbed. He opened his eyes and saw me there standing, staring at him. He was surprised, and he stopped kissing her. I ran out of the room, I was embarrassed. I think he was going to run after me. I couldn’t stop thinking about him again. I thought I didn’t love him anymore but those feelings I once had for him came back. I remembered how much I had loved him, and how much he had hurt me. That same day his sister, came up to me, I hadn’t talked to her for a long time, since I decided to forget about bob. She hugged me when she saw me, then we started talking again. She told me what she had done all this time that we didn’t talk, and then she told me something about her bob:
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