Am so in love right now and it's kinda weird that I've fallen in love with someone who is very opposite to what I've been looking for, I don't know how we got along because, nationality-different, lifestyle-so much different. He's not here with me right now and I feel so sad, it's really difficult living without him, it's like a struggle to live, I never wanted to be so weak, I was living a quiet and simple life, kinda boring, but that was before, then he came, he adds a little color, line and design, he even adds sparks to my black and white life and it was definitely fun, we've shared moments that would lasts till the end. I love him and he knows that, he told me to wait for him because he loves me, but I don't have any assurance if when will that ever going to happen, I'm hoping that somehow a fairytale would come true, I'm a dreamer though I know that it's only for kids, I'll wait for him, though it's really difficult, but I'm willing no matter what and how long will it takes. My friends told me that there should be a "deadline" for waiting, because what will happen is sort of martyrdom, I don't know, I'm confused. To think of: should I still wait for him because I love him though it's impossible for us to be together again, we're miles away and we're different or should I start moving on now and let that love I ever wanted just fades away???
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