It hurts me!!

Why I still remember the one I love? It hurts me so much until now. It very a long time since I broke up with my ex boyfriend. We never had a chance to talk and ended our relationship because of my pride and fear of being rejected. It’s too hard for me to let go. All the sleepless nights that I cry for those tear fall in my eyes are pain and angry. How could he do this to me of all the things that I made to sacrifice and loving him?! I try to turn away my family and friends but then he never see and realized how I’m deeply in love on him. In spite of all I always thank god that I meet that kind of person because of him I learned what is life. What is love? It’s too unfair on my part but I have to accept the fact that he didn't love me ever since we we're. How love is unfair how selfish and how painful it is!!! Love is unexplainable things.