living in the present

He lives in the present. He loved me so much im sure no words can tell. ive hurt the guy in countless amounts of ways and looking back i regret every time i broke his heart. but every time he forgave me, except this time. the last time. i should have knew this was coming. but i was blind by my own selfish desires. But then i broke his heart, knowingly. something i promised i would never do. anyways... i only wish i had one more chance. hes given me plenty but he just wont give me a chance to prove to him i have changed from a flirt to the girl ive been longing to be. i dont even want to be in another relationship with him. i just want a friendship. someone to talk to and can tell everything to and trust. i want my best friend back... not a boyfriend. i wish he would just talk to me and let some healing take place. hes living in the present and he the reason he wont talk to me is because he fears he will fall in love with me again. which i think is pretty selfish. im really trying to look at this situation unselfishly but i think its time for him to let go and talk to me and move on. in 20 years he wont know me but i wonder if he'll regret not getting things right. ive tried to talk to him and everytime he's left me in tears standing in the middle of the parking lot. now im not trying to make the reader of this feel bad or sorry for me. i just needed to tell somebody that doesnt know this guy.

*if you wouldnt mind, could you pray for the guy that God would give him peace about me and our friendship. i know you dont know me and i dont know me but we're all human and we all have problems when we just need someone to care enough to take time out of the day and pray. thank you.