lose love for the sake of love

Hey, guys i am in new york right now writing this story .It started a long time ago,which made me realise how smtimes we have to lose love for the sake of love.It was the end of thesenior year and the last day of our school..i dont want to tell real names so i would use different names

Before telling story i'd like to tell u little about my frnds........

I am vanessa,i was a very innocent kind of a girl who had never had a real boyfrnd before(i know it seems truly unreal)but there i was. we were 17 at that time and georgina was (infact is..)my bestfrnd and chris and i had been good frnds from 9th grade and could share true feelings with one another..i didnt know nate much he was a frnd of chris and so of gerogina but i hadnt interacted much with him but i had a crush on him from the first moment i ever saw him.. .goin back to last day we were almost heartbroken to leave our school and frnds forever and were (actully me i know chris,nate were gonna oo but they'd never agree) about to cry. we had applied for same college but the possibility for all 4 of us to be accepted in same college was was about one in a million.So we decided to take a last trip together.yes,we all planned to go o spain.it had always been my fantasy to be in spain with the love of my life. i always thought of it as the world's most romantic place.

All four of us went to spain with a bunch of other students studying in different schools it was like entering a new horizon.. i had never went out of country alone and with my frnds and nate was an inexplicable expirience. I didn know what to do this was the first time i ever felt somthin like this.i mean i had,had crush on boys before but i definately knew it was different with him. every time i saw him i got nervous. he was one of the coolest boys in school but he was super sweet and frndly.i knew he flrted with many girls but he had never been in a serious relaionship and the possibility tha he'd feel the same way i did was just too much to believe.He flirted with me too and i knew how he was so it was no way of telling what he really felt about me.Georgina is my best frnd in the whole world she is even closer to me than my parents.She told me on the night we flew for spain how she felt for nate and i was completley shocked and devastated not knowing what to say. we shared same interests but the thought ofsharing same crush was shocking.

It was all fine till the bonfire night i didnt tell G (georgina) anythin bcz it would have only made her miserable it wasnt like nate was gonna prapose or anythin..... butwho knows what will happen next till it does,we were all sittin near fire talking,cracking jokes when chris asked G to come with him inside the hotel as he wanted to talk to her.It was kinda surprising as he wanted to talk to her suddenly alone. As soon as they went inside nate said in a relieving tone "finally".i couldnt understand what?? when he quickly grabbed me by my arm and asked me to come wih him.I was confused,what was he doin??/he took me to the hotel's pool which was completley isolated at that time. i asked him what was happening when he suddenly leaned forward and kissed me. it was the first kiss of my life. It was magical for me not bcz it produced any fireworks or somthin but bcz it was with the right person but then i was suddenly the picture of G telling me about how so much she liked nate flashed in my mind,it was spontanious but i suddenly pushed him back. I was about to turn back& run away when he grabbed my hand and said " i am sorry,but i really like you".I didnt know what to say so i started hurrying back to the hotel room and words just came out " i like you too" he had a large smile on his face but i dont know why i ran back to my room.

G was waiting in the room and impatienly asked me where i had been and i made a supid lame excuse i was just hangin around but i how could i tell her that her crush just praposed to her best frnd and she said practically "yes".I couldnt almost sleap all night thinking how i and G had been best frnds since first grade and we told each other everything no matter what it concerned.She was one the most important persons in my life whom i can never see in pain and kept thinking was a boy more important to me than frndship? but it was also true only the thought of nate made me feel butterflies in my stomach.How could i ever say no to him?? I didnt know what to do but i knew i had to talk to someone about this and i felt who better than chris could be to talk abou this. So snuck out of the room before G was awake but you know sometimes destiny has stored somthin different than we can ever expect when i went in front of his room i could hear nate talking to him about me!!! about wat happened last night,i knew it was wrong but i couldn't resist to hear it. i heard chris saying " Hmmm...so you like vanessa!!" and i was blushing otside thinknig wat he'd say and he replied "um... actully no" and i was like outside " what??" please leave comments if u want me to continue this forward this is a very little part of the story