My Ray of Sunshine

Well, this one is like a dream come true which I never thought of...

The day I met this lady at barista, as per her convenience :) I was floored by her charm, she didn’t have any striking feature, but still she could demand my mind & heart...dint fell in love with her, definitely not!!! but there was an urge to be in touch with her, have never felt that, but... well, I guess god had better plans for me that's why unknowingly I was in touch with her & every time I chat with her, she would make me feel as if she knows me well & she is comfortable with me...

Dint have any idea as to what was store in future for me, rather for us...

Well, she came to my city for a official trip & she felt a need to inform me, I was touched, I felt honoured, this lady whom I met only once is so heart warming, guess because of her gestures I was liking this person... yes I was...but still dint expect anything, it was a pure form of need or liking... :)

Though we couldn’t meet that night.

Nevertheless, god was watching everything & only he new that my patience would be paid off.... :))

We started chatting one night, seeking professional help from her, but dint know that I would seek emotional help from her & be her support system for the rest of her life.....that night was the turning point in our life...we chatted on nonsense stuff like boiled vegetables, me going to bed early which she liked a lot & I liked the fact that she loves enjoying her life by going dancing, golf & eating boiled veggie... well...now... to your surprise... neither I go to bed early, nor she eats boiled veggie any more. :), Anyways, we bid good bye to each other that night with a slight expectation that now we would chat regularly (at least I tgt)... in fact, we did send each other a final msg that night saying "loved chatting with u"...as if call wasn’t sufficient.. :) but I liked it...

Next day I wrote a mail to her & she replied immediately...I loved it... (see how my liking towards her turned into love)... well, we started off & so did our future... I used to & still love her voice, ek nasha sa cha jaata hai... I get lost in her voice, its provocative. :))

Ok... so yes I used to search for a reason always...

one evening we were usually chatting via msgs & one msg read "am coming to mum tom"...& I was on TOP OF THE WORLD... but did not react, the fact that she informed me meant that even she was trying to meet me...& I was flattered, even if it wasn’t true, don’t spill the beans now...let me be happy... :)))

I immediately called her up & tried to figure out where could I fit my meet with her, was really praying while chatting, finally I did get a chance to meet the most wonderful heart in this universe...was waiting for the moment since morning, felt as if the day i passing quite slow....but the good part was that it was passing by, so i was happy...finally i called her when I reached her off, waited for good 5 mins...she finally arrived....saw a sophisticated lady standing holding her laptop bag & trying to call me coz she had forgotten me (feel like crying now...:((((.....we finally met, I was quite nervous didn’t know how to react...dint even get of the car as manners....she sat in my car & I felt as if my car got austin powers & we drove off....I started off my blaming her that she was late (as if I have all the rights on her)....we drove from lower parel to the airport, didn’t want to take that right turn for the airport, wanted to go for a long drive, but I guess good things come in small packets & I was content & happy with my small packet(time)....finally the time came where we had to bid good-bye to each other for a while, dunno for how long, she even messaged me which I was expecting & we exchanged messages till the aircraft took off & most amazing part was she did message me when she reached home & finally I was satisfied with the day...I knew she likes me as a friend, but knowing me, I wanted something more....what ??? guess I had a clue of what I want... I was swept off my feet by her...yes I was.

Now the frequency of being in touch with each other slowly grew & we both were enjoying it, she dint have slightest of clue, what's gonna happen next....now, i was confirmed that I have feelings for her but I don’t expect anything coz of the fear that i might loose her as a friend, which would have been a disaster for me & I would not never forgive myself...but being a good friend I had to confess my feelings to her in the most in appropriate manner (via msg)..to my surprise she replied saying 'its just a infuation & will go off after a while.....no it wasn’t ever...it would never be...

Our level of conversation took a different tangent altogether... I was bit scared to loose her as a friend...& then...finally destiny made me go to the city of my heart on 5th dec (if I rem the dates right)....i met her on 6th evng, nervous as ever coz i had proposed to her, man i had PROPOSED TO HER.....couldnt blv it then... :)) she finally came after making me wait for 15 mins...(dint i tell u earlier) :))) ......but i enjoyed my wait..it was a chilly eveng but i was feeling warm coz of my nervousness, she was wearing a red pull over & blue capris....first thing i saw was her hand on the gear knob & felt as if this hand is mine for the rest of my life....wanted to hold it, but could not...still i was happy that am with her..made some plans to spend that night, i was least interested in the plan, i loved the moment when i was looking into her eyes with all the love i have for her & her eyes too were trying to tell me something...i wasnt waiting for an answer...i wasnt in a hurry, but i was confident about my love coz its pure, true to itself, intense & innocent....

Next day evng we met again & for the very first time she was angry with me coz i dint give her my time...i was enjoying that moment, unknownigly she made me feel that she is all mine & she has all the rights to ask for her amount of time & afterall i made that trip only to spend time with her...that eveng we had mommos & i was generally telling her about my life...again we were looking into each other..oh yes...all this while i made her feel that hey look..i'm in love with you....she did not react just gave me a smile which said gimme some time....to which i said yes i would...u have exactly (looking at my watch), my entire life with you....& i mean it...

Next day we drove of to agra..drive was amazing, she was looking hot...first time i realised, the person whom i love so much is sexy too...bingo!! jackpot....i was the most richest person in this universe...yippe!!!! Dont even rem how many times i must have toldher i love you while driving...alas...finally the day came to an end & tgt wish everything would just stop right now coz i had to leave the next day...god answered my prayers & we went to vrindavan...felt so lucky to visit a hole place with a divine person...we both were quite sleepy that night, tried to be wide awake by having tea....chatted for a long time...bfre this trip i tgt we would discuss about our feelings about each other & will be quite open, but nothing in detailed was discuss, all she said was "i like it when u tell me that i love u"...& i was floored...it meant the world to me...oh yes...i have to mention to you that she was willing to put her feet in cold water & 2 mid night just coz i asked her to do so...she is a sweetheart...

Next day she woke me up with all her love & i liked it, wanted to go to sleep & dream...but had to lv...started for delhi, had kulhad tea along with her, my first bright cold morning & my morning tea with her...

Next she planned to visit me in jan...tried to make her feel like the queen of my life...hope i did achieve it somewhere close...she finally broke her silence, cdnt control her feelings, cdnt see me waiting for my answer & she said "I LOVE YOU"...i felt, now even if i die the next moment, i would have a shy smile on my face & wont regret my life....cant explain...wish i could....she made my life that very moment & i'm thankfull to her & god forever....

We planned for a trip to countryside coz i wanted to spend all the moments with her, again...she had so much of faith in me that she came wid me leaving her work just to meet me, i was honoured...cdnt ask god for anything more...i loved spending nights in your arms & loved the wine eveng under the sky, loved the sunset beach moment & A BIG THANKS FOR SAYING "YES" to me....i felt like a king & was secure about my life....thanks once again....

Life is really exciting since then....& i'm really happy to walk my life along with her......

All i wanted to say...u mean everything to me jaan & i will turn the world upside down to make u happy...

One should love the person the way he/she is...if you want her to love you the way to would like to be loved, then everything goes for a toss & guess that's where most of the couples go wrong. Communicate every feeling of yours, its very precious for him/her & dont forget communication is the key !! :))

Keep Smiling all of you & god bless....