OK I am a man so can i hate on hear to?I

OK I am a man so can i hate on hear to?If yes,Hear we go.My exwife is evile back when i was trying to be with her she destroyed me in many ways but i was dum i didnt see it.So we was broke up for about for years.She came back a few times we had sex then she would go back to her drug dealler ,She got pregnant said kid was mine i was like ok let me help you raise her,She stayed with her dope friend he had more money.Iwas thinking well the kid will have more.Time goes on i have other girlfriends i dont think about her much,We was still married ,I was thinking ,well if she dont want get devorce i am not going to bother with it.That way i cant mess up any more and get married again.Time goes on i worked in a saw mill.Me and my brother was going to work one day but this time i was needing to pick up a pack of cig. (I gave my last pack to my brothers mother in law)This time was different cause i didnt normally stay at my brother .I had to day before cause my friend who normally took me whent to stay allnighte with his fewcher wife.So i whent to my brother home.But hear is whear it gets wild next day on way to work i got my cig. We was pulling out we was in the intermediat .we was less a mile from work .(BOOM ) Car crash .We got hit so hard it crush front of truck broke frame.I seen a white light i didnt know we got it.I woke up chokeing on my blood.Broke my neck .When truck hit us it broke my seat belthe it the drivers side.I was like a arrow in a bowe it slung me into door frame then some how i got stab throu neck signale switch was through my neck witch broke it i came to i was drowning on my blood and i could not move.I was thinking this is it.trying to breath then someone came up broke signale off turn my head down so blood run out i could breath .At the same time my brain was swelling up i could not think straight.Black out came to i was laid out on road guys was strapping my to a board this county cop slap my face said he is drunk he just ackting to be hurt so i dont lock him up he hit me again i was like what the hell did i do .I going to jail or hell.I black out again .Next thing i new i was in a dark place talking to some really big guy.The ground glowwed in this place he told me some stuff that was to come my way if i chose to come back.Well he told me few things it all happen,But thats annother story.So time goes on i wake up parrollized in hospitale month later.Then by some mirracle from GOD i learnt to walk again i still could not feal but i put my mine to walk at first it was just a finger move and i worked on it from thier.They was lawyers trying talk to me,I just didnt under stand much.i got a lot of storry to tell but i better skip up till i get out.OK me and my exwife was apart for 2 or 3 years the kid she said was mine is 2. I figured i would never see them again i get a 100 grand pay lawyer 1/3 i have 66 grand i buy house car dont waist it i am thinking i may whant a family some day.I had a girl friend,Then out of nowhear she shows up my wife i figure what the heck i talk to her play with kid she say was mine .I was like ok kids mine now it was drug man but now its mine.I wanted kid be mine but i didnt think she was.I new she didnt like me so i was trying fine a way to get a devorce i was broke could not work barly move around i was in pain then she shows up saying hear is your kid.My girl friend didnt like it but she was like if kid is your get test done i tryed but it takes money.Time goes on i go to see kid soon to be exwife was staying with her mother .I go see kid.Me and girlfriend get into it .So i get away from her to.So i go see kid i was in pain from hell.I took to much medication i black out.I come to in back seat of my car with soon to be exwife her sisters boyfriend was driveing .Hear is whear the crap hit the fan,My girl friend pulls up her buddy was driveing her they get into a argument i didnt really no what was going on.So i say go get out of hear so we pull out the driver just could not drive that good lots curves i was thinking dam i am going to die in car crash so i trip i say pull over pull up in car wash maybe they not see us we do.They go bye we think ok lets go hear they pop up on us they pull up driver of my girl friends car was cursing i say lets go i cant fight i just got neck braise of i got steal cage inside my neck my left arm was still parolized i could not walk straight no way was i get my neck broke again .I say i cany fight you all tell driver go.We go again we see a side road i say go up thier they not see us we do they go bye again we think ok we got away.They figure out whear we whent this time they pull up block us in.OK i get out i said its over me her broke up i not with my ex niether .My now exgirl friend said i need get my close out of your trunk i say ok pop the trunk i hold side car we was on gravel road i could not walk to well i look in trunk i see gun on close.(DAM)death is after me i grab gun i say i not give you gun till you let us out her drive said no i take gun from you.So i pull gun up say get back let me out you get gun he say ill beat you to death.So i repeat let me out i drop gun by road go you get gun.My dum ass exwife grabs my dam hand tries get gun pow it goes off shot him in chest he died on the spot,She screams i killed him i said get in car.OK one of the other people in his car moves it back a little shuts door we leave exwife crying said owe i killed him what about the baby who will watch baby i am getting locked up.OK i was doped up on medicaition some one i new was dead she crying about baby i said shut up ill take blaim hell its not like we murder him.So i turn my self in i tell my cuz i didnt kill him i dont think i got to worry.I get to jail they lock me up in holding cell,They question me i say i didnt kill him they say who did ?I say we got in fight he was trying take gun.They say did you kill him i say nothing they send me back to cell.If i new then what i know now .MY SOON TO BE EXWIFE TOLD THEM I KILLED GUY ON PURPPOSE.They tell me i think they telling lies i say nothing they send me back to cell i was thinking did she really i will just tell them next time.tHEY NEVER SENT FOR ME ANY MORE I WAS CHARGED WITH FIRST DEGREE MURDER.Exwife was thinking she gets rid of me she gets house car.well i got sent off for many years exgirl friend had someone burn house.Life is not easy for a half cripple man in the big house those are a differnt story.I HATE my ex.